I thought my life (health) was supposed to get better after surgery but I’m starting to debate that theory. DH made me a nice, low-fat meal this evening (I confess I ate a bit too much) but now I am SICK! Not really bad sick, just ill. The gas, the nausea, the pain – how can something that isn’t there hurt??? (Phantom pain I suppose, but it is weird.)
OK, so I am only 2 weeks out of surgery. But this was laparoscopic – easy stuff, right? Recovery is a bitch. I’m still wearing sleep clothes that are 2-4 sizes too big because otherwise the waistbands encroach on the bellybutton incision and – ouch! I wore jean capris all day today and boy am I paying for it now. I can’t find anything that will make my waist area feel OK. I can feel the scar tissue building up around the smaller incisions… they feel like little knots. I know, it’s weird. And it’s hard to explain.
And now I’m nauseous, even with the nausea medicine. It’s the weekend and I don’t know what to do. I don’t know that there is anything I can do – I can’t call the doctor’s office. And even if I could, what would I say? ‘You’ve given me nausea medicine and I still feel sick.’ Yes, I suppose I could, but is it worth it? Sometimes there just isn’t anything they can do. Take it easy – rest – that’s not easy for a anxious bipolar. Am I anxious right now? You bet I am. After all, I feel sick – just as sick as I did before they took my gallbladder.
Maybe I need it back.
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