One day is pretty much like the others for me now but I thought I would wish everyone else (American at least) a Happy Independence Day! And since it’s Independence Day, I should declare myself independent of some guilt. My (new) therapist has asked me how long I intend to keep punishing myself for losing my job and she said I just need to declare that I am done. Put it in writing, she said. So here, I am publicly announcing it:
I, Manic Monday, hereby do declare that I shall not feel guilty over losing my job.
-Thursday, July 4, 2013
Things didn’t go exactly as I planned there, some of it was my fault, some of it wasn’t, but I can’t keep blaming myself for losing the job. It’s gone and done. I just have to try to find a new one. (Easier said than done, sadly.) It was a really bad place for my mental health and my mind is better off not there. I might have to work three jobs instead of one, but everyone goes through phases in their life. Hopefully, this is just a phase.
Wow, my therapist was right. It is liberating to write something like that. She also told me to draw with my left hand using crayons. That’s kind of liberating too. I did it one day when my anxiety was really high and discovered what anxiety “looks” like to my inner self. It was really interesting. I’m going to take it with me to my next therapy session.
Anyway, that’s all I have to share for today. 🙂