I got to thinking today that I’m not such a bad person. I donate to charity when I can (Salvation Army today) and I try to be nice to people in general. I say please and thank you. I wish people a good weekend or a happy holiday. I’ve got a lot more patience than I give myself credit for and I try to do good. Sometimes I don’t succeed at that because I am afraid.
Although I can be negative, cynical and a pessimist, I’m generally not mean. I try to be a supportive wife, friend, daughter and aunt, although my siblings and I are at odds. I like to help people; I especially like to help people understand things like math or science.
My self-esteem is low, but I still think I’m not a bad person. (Ask me a different day and I may give you a different answer.) Sometimes I think about what it would be like to have a healthy self-esteem. I’ve always worried that by working on my self-esteem I would become over-confident and perhaps narcissistic. Supposedly, that’s not the case, but since we are going to be working on my self-esteem in therapy, I’ll let you know how it goes.
Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that for today, at least, I don’t think I’m a bad person. 🙂